Almost a year since I lost my mom

My Sweet mom...

This has been a year of changes and reflections, full of memories and heart ache. I guess it is time to get out from hiding. Picking what I can do and stop not showing up or not being available for some commitments and friends. It has been hard finding the pieces of myself that are scattered about now that my mom is not there to talk to every day. I miss that. Talking to her every day. So many disappointments and sadness, but there also has been a lot of happiness. This post I am going to describe a few things that have been rattling around in my brain but haven't been able to put down on paper or blog because they are painful to think about....

- I look at the last date from my blog and it is almost like time stood still after she died -

I want to thank all the people who wrote cards and sent special tributes in her honor. The feelings are overwhelming, it has been hard to open some of the cards because it was just another reminder that she is gone. For me cleaning her house out and selling her house was more painful than anything. Every day still there are small reminders or tasks that still need to be completed with the estate. Like her clothes, or books, and the room full of boxes in my basement along with the furniture that just seems on hold waiting on what to do next....